Saturday, December 15, 2012

Birdie Inspired Update

So a little birdie told me today that they actually read my blog. (Thanks S) I have kinda updated the ladies on NW's forum and some things have changed in the week since my last post so I figured I'd get everyone up to speed. I still have not received my settlement but unfortunately it looks like it might not be where me and my lawyer originally thought that it would be. This definitely affects all of my plans and I may have to come up with a plan D E & F at this point. As of right now because nothing is finalized I am still hoping to move to Columbus and become an SMBC. Due to the current change of events however I may not be able to do 1 the other or either so of course ttcing has been put on hold until further notice. Scary as it sounds I may not actually even have the funds to move somewhere within my current city making me broke and homeless. Of course I can always stay with family until I get some funds but I'm trying to avoid that at all costs. I have been against finding a job in Indianapolis right now because I wanted to move out of the city but I think I'm going to go ahead and break down and find something just in case. It's amazing what can happen in 7 days. It's sad that I was hit by a truck and may end up with less money than I had the day I was struck but at least my medical bills will be taken care of as well as my lawyer, go figure. Now I find myself hoping for the best and preparing for the worst but thankfully I have some idea of where to go from here. At least finding a job and a place to stay in my hometown will be a lot easier and if I can find something soon I may be back on track to try early 2013. Last cycle was all over the place being at a record short of 25 days and I o'ed 2 days early. Even if I had 1,000,000 dollars right now there's no way I'd be able to insem this month as I ovulate Christmas Day! I wanted to keep tracking anyway so I'd still be inseming sometime around January or February without all the new hassles of my settlement issue. Realistically I'm probably looking at March or April at the earliest because I still have to move. I think staying in our hometown will actually work out a little better at least for right now because BM will have a better chance of coming with me, as she's been worried about money issues too. It's still out of my hands and I'm just preparing and waiting to see what happens. Who knows $anta might give me a good gift this year. Thank you all who read my blog and please send prayers good wishes and baby dust my way. Have a good holiday if I don't post by Xmas.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Back to Basics

Oh my it has been far too long. I have found myself mentally back where I started. I am leaving the ultimate decision up to God. Depending on my settlement I'll be going with plan A B or C. I still very much want to go to Columbus and be a mom but I'm taking it outta my hands. I am going to start a vlog on YouTube if I indeed become a smbc. I've been doing all kinds of thinking and I'm just super excited about the future. Other than that things are just kinda slow. It is officially the second week in December and by the new yr things should be rolling. It coming close but I'm trying to stay faithful. I wish I had more the say but really life is just day to day. Need to start doing something's for moving like going through the boxes in the attic. I'm a lil behind on my timeline but some things I just can't do yet. Hopefully I'll have some news to share and progress to report in a week or so. Also I wanted to share that I've joined pintrest and I love it! Can't wait to start using it at the new place. Oh and I finally got my tat colored. Blue snowflakes on my leg, so pretty.