Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Birthday Wishes

All I wanted was a proposal...its been a month. The mailman has came. What else are you waiting on? So many opportunities. I feel like not only have I earned it I've earned saying no if I wanted to. Like he was so worried about me still saying yes when he proposes but still has no intention on asking! I'm just over it at this point. He wants me to let him in and to be happy and all this stuff that requires trust but won't commit. Why should I trust a cheater who'd risk losing me over $300! All I can think about is how that baby could be his. And how I'm still gonna probably be right here even if she is waiting on him to want me enough. What's wrong with me?

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Petty?

I'm so tired of the same shit all the time. How is it no one ever seems to know How to take care of or look out for me. Most of what I do for others is what I want done for me. If I fall asleep in my clothes wake me up so I can take them off. Like simple shit. How many times do I have to explain it. I'm just gonna have to look out for myself and I'm having a hard time with that. Like how hard is it to think about me. Maybe I'm just being a child and need to realize I'm the only one that gives 2 fucks about me falling asleep in my clothes. Should probably stop caring about anyone else too.