Dear God

Lord,
I don't know what to do. I got so much going on and so much i can't do shit about. Im hiding out in my own damn house cus of some bs. I feel so alone and yet i have mixed feelings on if it actually should just be that way...Im so lost and Im so ready to just give up. What did i do? What am i doing wrong? Im so conflicted and mixed up my head hurts and Im dizzy. Help me. Please.