New Leaf

There has been so much going on I almost can't think straight. Something big yet invisible has happened and I must say I feel like I'm floating. Such a weight has been lifted from me and all I can do is thank God.

I can finally say the drama with the bm is over! I was trying to prepare for the worst and what I got was more than I coulda hoped for. I became fed up with the disrespect. I did what I thought was right and demanded respect and space/time between ® and bm. Lol of course I kinda got cussed out by her and he wasn't gonna not talk to her for shit..... I was mad at God and thought myself hated. I thought ® was choosing his friendship over our relationship. I all but asked him to leave. I couldn't bring myself to do so. I was at the end and falling quickly into a nightmare. Then it turns out bm has been confronted, threatened, and put in her place. Not at all how I thought it had to go but definitely how it needed to. Of course they're still friends and will probably blur the lines with their friendship for the rest of my life but its always clear when a line is crossed no matter how blurry and I know if it is ® has it taken care of.

I asked God to tell me if this was my husband. This isn't the first time, its the second. First time was 12/31/2012... I asked if he were that at midnight he would kiss me. Well he ended up having to go home and through random events actually ended up with me at midnight. I had no idea what time it was (I was running my mouth) and at midnight he turned my face to his, kissed me, and said happy new year. Two days later he said he loved me and the next day we where official....

Its been a long year with so many ups downs twists and turns. I believe ® is my husband and with this situation put to rest I walk with confidence down this path my life is on. It's time to turn over a new leaf. I'm embracing my future and thanking God for his deliverance and my husband.