Friday, May 9, 2014

What Doesn't Matter...

Here's my verbal vomit for the night...I want to be excepted for exactly who I am. I want to be married to the love of my life like yesterday. I want the stupid shit to stop. I want our baby. I want to be free. I don't want to be judged by ppl who say they love me. I don't want to look in the mirror and feel bad cus I'm afraid my reflection isn't good enough. I want to be closer to god. I want to feel like an adult. I want to grow up. I want to belong to you but more so I want you to belong to me. I want it to work. I want to work at making it work. I don't want to wait, I honestly don't see the point. I want to lose hope so it won't hurt as much. I want you to make up your mind, realize its a choice you continue to make. I want to see how much you care, feel it. I want you to love me like I love you. I want to feel better. I want happiness.