Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Monday, March 23, 2015
Why do people say trust me then do things that make you not want to? Why delete messages if you have nothing to hide. Why let your bm continue to talk inappropriately? I wish you were single so i can spend time and go out. I want to talk but i don't think i should say. Um no bitch you probably shouldn't. And what happened to only talking about the kids? What happened to cutting her off. Why did you not say if its not about the kids don't bother? Oh that's right, I'm your bitch. Your dog 🐕 right. Your pet? That must make you my master right daddy? But you think it's petty and you don't care. Don't you even see the principal of keeping your word? Was getting caught cheating with this bitch not enough? She may not find better but I'm starting to think that's just because she doesn't deserve it.
Not to mention you have a toothache so that makes its OK to be a dick to me all day? Even with your sorry. I've taken care of you. You found a same day appointment. Why didn't you know about this place when it was me? And i worked all day through mine. Had to pay 20 for the er and your meds were only 18 shit. I'm never as important as you. Not even to myself. Shit we both worried about you...Trust me
Thursday, March 19, 2015
Wondering what lesson I'm supposed to be learning here...i feel like I'm nothing. Like I'm just here for how i benefit others. When the person you want to spend the rest of your life with would rather sleep than talk to you, makes you wonder why you're there. Spent my life waiting to be the most important thing to someone. Hell anyone. But no one wants me. They just want what i can do for them. Its like whatever i want everyone else wants the opposite...why would anyone want to give me anything anyway. Who cares about being faithful or monogamous when you got a girl who would rather give you permission to fuck everyone than risk you cheating. Who cares about foreplay when you gonna nut regardless. Who cares about how much pain I'm in if they can't feel it...nobody. I just want to be the center of attention to somebody who genuinely can't get enough of me. That will never happen.
Friday, March 6, 2015
"You keep saying sexually single.. I just want to be able to fk a bitch from time to time without coming home and be accused of cheating or arguing about the shyt.... I'm so tired of all the petty shyt... You don't don't like sex as much as i do... Yes i said that cause i just want to bust a nut with another bitch and you don't... I just want to be able to tell you yes i am horny as hell and you jump me but no, you don't... You get mad for how horny i am sometimes cause that's "THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND".... I just want to fk freely... If i cant fk you and I've already fkd myself possibly 3-6 times already... WTF"
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
All I wanted was a proposal...its been a month. The mailman has came. What else are you waiting on? So many opportunities. I feel like not only have I earned it I've earned saying no if I wanted to. Like he was so worried about me still saying yes when he proposes but still has no intention on asking! I'm just over it at this point. He wants me to let him in and to be happy and all this stuff that requires trust but won't commit. Why should I trust a cheater who'd risk losing me over $300! All I can think about is how that baby could be his. And how I'm still gonna probably be right here even if she is waiting on him to want me enough. What's wrong with me?
Saturday, February 7, 2015
I'm so tired of the same shit all the time. How is it no one ever seems to know How to take care of or look out for me. Most of what I do for others is what I want done for me. If I fall asleep in my clothes wake me up so I can take them off. Like simple shit. How many times do I have to explain it. I'm just gonna have to look out for myself and I'm having a hard time with that. Like how hard is it to think about me. Maybe I'm just being a child and need to realize I'm the only one that gives 2 fucks about me falling asleep in my clothes. Should probably stop caring about anyone else too.
Saturday, January 31, 2015
Why do you have to lie to me? I paid attention to you listened to you and read between the lines. I took the time to figure out on my own what was going on. I came to you, talked to you. I did my job as a good gf and checked up on how you were feeling. Then you basically tell me to leave it alone. Its bad enough fb knew how you felt before I could put the pieces together...
But you just gone hit her up and vent. Tell her what's on your mind and get her support for your decision. Tell her how you cried and how she's made you feel. Still hurting over y'all relationship and letting her talk shit. If it ain't her reminiscing its you.
Top all that with a bold faces lie to my face. Nope I ain't talk to her about how I feel. Stop worrying. I tell you it's hard not to worry (because I love you duh) and you come back with "if I leave now will you feel better". Wtf! Really? First you lie then be an ass. Oh and I'm dying to know what she knows/can do to "ruin Wtf you got going on". And you wonder why I don't trust you easy. Y'all not even supposed to be friends like that anymore. You say she owe you her life for the shit she said in that video but she threaten you and you shut all the way up. What's really going on? I guess I got stupid tattooed on my forehead right? Here I am having dreams about you killing yourself and leaving your kids and I but you can't even be honest with me.
She more upset about having to take care of the kids than anything happening to you. Don't even realize you wasn't talking about running away with me but possibly taking a 🔫 to your fucking head! Who the fuck do you really think is in your corner? That means when you pull the trigger your blood is on my hands. Not hers. She gone let you do what you do and as far as the kids in her eyes she ain't gonna be doing nothing she don't do already. She gonna tell you she still loves you but basically don't care. But I'm the one you lie to. I'm the one in this situation with you. Fucking kill me too then shit.